Peace

Life has been somewhat peaceful of late. I think I've just had some internal resolutions happen for a while now. Things seem to be slowing down. I am taking the time to just observe life happening, listen to what's happening in my body and spirit, appreciate all the good things that I have.

And there are a lot of good things. I think the thing I have battled with the most is self doubt. It's starting to leave me now.


Funny thing now is that the diary space I created a while back now doesn't hold as much appeal to me anymore. I post a lot of pictures and some quick thoughts sometimes...or some daily happenings but nothing like I used to. 

I am ok with that too. James said that I tended to use that space as a bit of therapy, a place to offload and vent. I don't seem to need to do that anymore. I like that.


James and I went away for the weekend as we planned. It was everything we could have possibly hoped for but then again I think we both went away with a positive and hopeful attitude and an intention to really connect. The weather was simply beautiful and we took every opportunity to get out in the warm sunshine and fresh air and just brush away the cobwebs of the city.


Honestly, it wouldn't have taken much for me to agree to staying of someone would have said, "Here! Live here. Work here. Enjoy the rest of your life here." I would have stayed. If they offered me the job as the local street sweeper I think I would have stayed. 


The conversations we had were wonderful and productive...I mean really productive. I think we needed to just put down our defences and really listen. I certainly felt heard and I hope James did too. 


I think maybe we need to take a little bit of the country back to suburbia with us. Is that possible? To create in our own back yard the feeling of beauty and space, the feeling that the world can be going along at it's breakneck pace beyond our fence, but in our yard and in our home is a sense of beauty and calm; a place where you can just relax and be.

 

These are the villas where we stayed.

 

The waterfall close by.

Walking along the track near the falls