Wake Up Call

Last Thursday I had a CT scan on my noggin as I have been having dizzy spells for most of the year and my GP thought we needed to investigate it to rule out anything nasty.

MY GP called me on Monday wanting to talk with me about the results. Thankfully I have no little aliens growing in my brainspace (which is what I was thinking!), however my scans showed that there are areas of atrophy in my brain. This is most unusual for someone of my age. It can be expected in someone in their mid to late 60's but not someone of 45.

At first I was quite traumatised, memories of my poor grandfather making me cry - who, at the age of 60 could barely remember his own name let alone anyone elses. My poor, dear Pa who could not communicate as he had lost the ability to verbalise his thoughts, who would wander off or take off on his bicycle in his dressing gown, who was confused with tasks that were commonplace. All I could see was slowly becoming like him and I was afraid. I tend to do that you know; look at the worst case scenario first, rather than just wait for the results of further investigations. I have an appointment with a neurologist on June 26 to discuss what's happening and perhaps have an MRI if he/see thinks it's necessary. It may just be an interesting something that may or may not mean anything. I am still firing on all four cylinders at the moment! (apart from dizziness!) Still, to see this in someone my age is out of the ordinary.

I've done a bit of investigating myself and have a number of positive things I can implement to keep myself healthy. My anaemia is the first thing I will be addressing, closely followed by my high cholesterol. Why is it that people who watch their diets, don't eat junk and take care of their bodies are notorious for having high cholesterol? Mine's well over 6 and I am careful with what I eat. Go figure! Regardless, I will be taking even more care of it from here on in.

I'm treating this as a wake up call. I plan to be awake and alert and amazing at the age of 100, however I am going to live in the moment, make wonderful memories with my kids and others I love. I'm going to see things I've always wanted to see, do things I've always wanted to do, spend more time laughing, less time worrying. I'm going to do Yoga and learn how to let go of things that have held me down....just in case this atrophy progresses and I do begin to forget.

Live for the moment. That's what I'm going to do.